If I could explain with words the things that are happening inside my mind

It is like if I was loosing it

The reason is licking off my fingers

In drops each two seconds

I find myself in front of the mirror crying

Pretending that nothing it is happening

And still lying to myself

Lying to the rest

Lying

I don’t know what is it

Is it there?

Is it me?

Look to another side, and I keep walking

And the sound of the emptiness

Is driving my insane

When he asks me what is it…

I don’t have words to explain it

But I am standing there

Hiding from everything and everyone

I am listening the music trying to escape.

I thought this was what I wanted

I got it

Finally I got it, then why the fuck I feel like this?

The reason, the meaning…

The voice in the back of my head

Is each day lauder and lauder

“Wait”

Keep waiting to see if at the end of the night

The touch of the skin dissolves the pain

The pain is real

The pain is there

The thoughts that I have are mine

Are mine or his, or fake?

Am I loosing my mind?

Did I ever have it clear?

“I know what I want” I used to say

I don’t know shit

The reality is that I don’t know shit

And no matter how hard I scream

How badly I need someone there

How much it hurt crying like if my eyes would be bleeding

Nothing changes.

Nothing fucking change!

AND IT IS NOT FUCKING SIMPLE!